BEAUTY, UGLINESS, & INVISIBILITY
For Take A Word: beauty. Elements from Crafty Button Designs, Forever Joy, Gabi’s Creations, Captivated Visions, Dawn Inskip, and Lynne-Marie. Fonts are Klee CapScript, Sweetly Broken, & Another Typewriter.
The journaling is an excerpt from an old blog post at Watermark:
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I have been, in my life, beautiful and invisible; and fat (in this time, in this place — ugly) and invisible. Old and invisible. Female and not beautiful, and invisible. Female and beautiful, and invisible. So many of us are looked at, but not seen. So many of us look, but do not see.
And so we live our secret, invisible lives.
When I try to imagine how others see me, I give up in despair. I am always likely to reach the worst conclusions — occasionally confirmed by experience — that I am seen as fat, ugly, old, and uninteresting. Fat and stupid — synonyms in our language. Old and boring — the same.
But I know that I am not stupid; I know that I am not boring. I know that, in fact, I am sometimes — often, even — seen as scary. I take up too much space, in every sense. I am large. My mind is large. My body is large. And my self is large.
Better had I been male — but this is not something I've ever wanted. The room, the space, the freedom that men have — that I've wanted. The freedom to look at a man straight-on, instead of, attentively, up — that — I've wanted.
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