a poet’s notebook

A Bad Spell

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A bad spell (which can last for months) means:

  • Energy
    to do only one or two things per day. Taking a bath or shower counts.
    So does cooking a meal. So does writing a blog post, or talking on the
    phone with a friend. Take your pick.
  • Neglecting the pets. Not walking the dogs. Insufficiently petting the cats. Ignoring the parakeets. Being a bad pet parent.
  • Beginning, setting down, forgetting, several books at once.
  • Sleeping at least twelve hours per day. Not quite being awake the other twelve.
  • Wearing the same clothes, unwashed, day after day after day, because doing laundry is too difficult.
  • Eating rather too much pizza. Cheap, filling, delivered.
  • Stepping carefully around piles of books, magazines, unread mail.
  • Leaving phone calls, email, paper mail, blog comments — unanswered.
  • Wondering how one prioritizes long procrastinated tasks.

Of
course, the fact that I can write this means that the bad spell is
easing; it's only in looking back that I see how bad it's been.

I saw the doctor today. He suggests — tentatively, as it's spendy — a drug called Provigil.
It's meant for the treatment of narcolepsy, but apparently has showed
some effectiveness in patients suffering severe fatigue. He's seen
patients respond with increased energy and mental acuity.

Sounds
like heaven to me. I remind myself, keep hope within bounds. I've been
there before. First task, investigate drug. Next task, ask you: have
any of you tried this?

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3 responses to “A Bad Spell”

  1. FLÁVIO Avatar
    FLÁVIO

    Hi1!

  2. catnapping Avatar

    it’s amazing how filthy rich some folks are getting from folks with chronic and/or terminal illnesses.
    my meds are costing me hundreds a month. and i hate the pharmaceutical companies that are making them. they make all this noise about how much it costs to research and test. bullshit.
    the overhead is all about courting doctors (and their nurses), and paying for ads on television.
    when my brain was still working, i worked for a couple of different physicians. both were actively sought by drug reps. and you wouldn’t believe the perks…the bribes…vacations it the guise of workshops, seminars, and continued education…
    our offices were supplied with mugs, pens, paper, calendars, napkins, calculators, surgical instruments, candy (lots and lots of candy), sandwiches, pizzas, and free meds…samples for patients, that as nurses, we saved for those too poor to pay for them…cuz the drug companies were spending money trying to bribe our employers into prescribing their meds (rather than the generic…or an earlier generation of the same family of drugs).

  3. SukanarxAstrumxLetum Avatar

    I know this all too well.. FMS for the past 7, going on 8, years.
    Sick of pills being shoved my way, although sometimes you can’t get around it.. Have you tried the hypoglycemic diet? (No (processed)carbs, no sugars, or starchy foods… or as little as possible)
    It’s a bit hard to stick with at times, but it does make a difference with the “brain fog” and the lack of energy.. it doesn’t entirely eliminate it (but I tend to slip very much with the diet).

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